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Dear P

Who am I grateful to today:

• My employers for allowing me to work flexitime
• My brother Dave for his heartfelt letter. So well written and another of the growing pile of tributes

Despite the gratitude I feel low.  After the initial shock comes the creeping realisation that you are gone. I miss you terribly but strangely feel no anger, just a terrible numbness. I have become hardened to the thought that there is nothing to be gained by moping. I have to try and live. The boys need me to be positive and in turn their natural inclination to look forward will be a good influence. 

I still cannot believe it. It is so unfair. How can you of all people, with your bright outlook, have your life cut so short. "After all" as you would often say at times of reflection on your illness, "I'm only a little Poohs". 

Love

M